A Sad Angel ... without wings

I'm so sorry, being moody again....  

Have you see an Angel without wings?  No right? An Angel without wings don't look like an Angel at all. And the beauty of an Angel is not complete.  Same with us transgender.  We feel like we are missing something in life. Something in us that is not right. And we feel we are ugly looking in our sight. Our present is not felt at all. We are not welcome in the society, not even in our own home and with our families.

I wrote this poem to symbolise myself as a transgender, is like an Angel born without it wings.

A Sad Angel

I'm like a sad Angel born without wings
A sad song in my heart I can softly sing
I wander on a earth but never in the sky
Without any wings, I'm not be able to fly
I grief on my missing wings every night
To find an answer to my missing plight
Why I'm born looking so ugly in a sight 
It's not me and what I look into my kind
I'm shame of myself when I look inside 
Until I want to run away to go and hide
In a dark place no one will see me cry
I never happy and want to end my life
Find no meaning living a life so unlike
Till I pray to the Lord on a lonely night

“Without my wings, Lord, will I able to fly?”

The Lord answer me with a sympathy sight:

“My dear angel, I created you without wings
It's your heart that mean more than anything
Goodness in you shall bring forth good tiding
You can be a normal if you're gentle and kind
To break your spell my dear, you need to find
A humble guy who is able to share your plight
He's too without wings like u beneath the sky
Searching for an angel who is gentle and kind
Until that time my sad angel don’t lose sight
Your missing wings in search for him tonight
And when you find him you will find out why
Deep down in him you'll find his heart inside
Lay the mystery to your missing wings myth
It’s mortal love and not wings you seek to fly
As human and not Angel you'll be able to find
The joy and harmony is what you seek in life
On earth with your love one beneath the sky
And it's a blessing from Heaven in paradise”

Ada Shuling
04 April 2015