He stole my Heart

My heart he stole away from me
With no heart I'm good as death
Ripped from my chest he took it
My open wound he left me bled
My love for him I hold so dearly
No matter how to make him stay
Yet couldn't possess him wholly
He still left me and slipped away

Through all the stormy weather
With all his lies, I failed to see
My love has than found another
And he loved her more than me
Coz of love for him, I was blind
Tot he's only playing his game
Love deceived me in my mind
I couldn't see he was to blame

Till one day it's much too late
My love just left without a trace
I cried, screamed out his name
And tears pouring down my face
Now I'm crying in my lonely bed
Wish he was here to see me too
Falling in love was just too bad
My love always didn't come true

Ada Shuling huling

Dreams Quotes

A Walk with you in the silence of the night , when you can feel each step, each sigh, when warmth of your hand can share your emotional state and each word takes on special significance and reflects the unique attitude to each other - it's everything beyond my wildest dreams. You mean a lot to me; remember it always in spite of everything!!! I adore you!
Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you only have one life to live and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
last night i hugged my pillow and dreamnt of you and i wish that someday id dream of my pillow and id be hugging you
Dreams are which the mind conceives, the heart desires, and the soul believes.
I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish, I'll be your fantasy, I'll be your hope, I'll be your love & all that you want me to be...
A kiss is just a kiss till you find the one you love. A hug is just a hug till you find the one you're always thinkin' of. A dream is just a dream till it comes true. Love was just a word till I heard it from you.
I dream of you when I'm asleep, you even appear when I'm awake daydreaming. There is no escaping you. I just wish it was true.
I may not be the dream you want to come true, but I'll always be the person in love with you.
Life's true pleasures are seen only behind the closed eyes of a dream.
All my dreams came true the day that I met you. I Love You!

You brought me sunshine,

You brought me sunshine,
when I only seen the rain.
You brought me laughter,
when I only felt the pain.
You so romantic at heart
I fell in love at first sight
Have I known you before?
OMG! This feel is so right!
Have we met you before?
Another time, another place
If it's only for one night
Will it bring us disgrace?
Why I've  these feelings?
Must it be just temporary?
Or just to make you happy
Does it seems so necessary.
I just want to let you know,
Because I'll never forget~
In knowing your smile~
Your kisses~ your love~
Dreams are something,
That can't always come true,
Nothing more we can say,
Nothing more we can do.
I do love you.................

Adaline Quo Shuling

I'm always right here for you.....

Sometimes people make us angry for nothing 

That make our feelings obviously annoying 

Sometimes because of them we were down

In our unhappiness state that make us frown

We just don't want to talk about it or explain

Nobody would like to feel same kind of pain

But just remember you're friendly and kind

A lovely person like you is so hard to find.

You've a beautiful smile and  heart of gold

And friendly and loving in a way you show 

Oh remember I'm always right here for you,

I do care for you dearly and forever it’s true.

Love

Adaline Quo Shuling

Friends

We're friends, though we never met

We came to know in FaceBook chat

I wanted to chat, you always there 

A friendly greetings and comments
To show a little concern that we care

Our gratitude of the things we share

With a gesture that’s what friends do

These are things that represent you

To me you’re always a friend so true

You're well as my dearest friends too 

A lady boy’s desire ………..

Only a lady boy knows of sensual mounting fire

She holds the key to unlock her glowing desire

Only a lady boy knows a soft touch can excite

A man’s pleasure mounts to maximum height

Only a lady boy knows, yet she will not reveal

The sensational mood of her craving she feels

Only a lady boy knows sex like no other being

Her sexuality in feeling that flow from within

Only a lady boy feels her Mother Nature side

Pass down to her is the femininity in pride

Yet a lady boy can’t unlock her own destiny

From crunches of sex fiends makes her kinky

Notwithstanding in the double roles she plays

The feeling of her ability to love in both ways

Ended up exhibiting in exploitation of herself

Exposing a naked body to betray her true self

She can’t hold back the aroma lure of a male

This secretive sex life of a bewildering female

Surpassing her limits she thoughts can be free

To be an adequate woman she's looking to be

But Alas! She’s never able to fulfil her destiny

To be upright virtuous woman in her chastity

Coz she’s a lady boy and that’s the way she is

And it will never change a fact a boy or a lady

Ada Shuling

Dreaming of you......

I think of you as I lay down on my bed
Your image always linger in my head
Seems like you're here never go away
Deep inside my mind you forever stay
I'm tossing in my bed trying to forget
My weary eyelids close and dream set
I dream of you beside my bed you sat
Bending down you're kissing my neck
My heart pounding the deeper you sank
I can smell a male aroma of your sense
You whisper in my ears full of romance
I'm unable to resist your luring tempts
My lusty sexual desire is getting tense
Bits by bits our clothing being to shed
Till we're both naked like nobody care
You on top of me pressing as you pant
I can feel the thrill when our lips blend
My breathing grow faster trying to gasp
Our love gets stronger the hotter we get
We make love in bed like there's no end
Lickin and suckin each other as we can
Till I've an orgasm and about to climax
Then I wake up, it's just a dream I have
And it's my bolster I'm hugging instead
But it's a sweet dream and I get so wet
Coz I've been thinking of you like mad

Mmmm.... am dreaming of you....
Ada Shuling
3 rd June 2015

As Good Friend still.......

We use to message each other in whatsapp
You always got a way in cheering me up
Looking out for me whenever I feel sad
I'm glad to have a friend never get mad

I known your secrets but I could never tell
When I kept quiet you said I'm too fragile
I just don't have to show my jealous self
Coz' everyone have secret within ourselves

I'll always be as your friend no matter what
Friend be together till the end in keeping up
Friend hangs on through the ups and downs
It's then we've got somebody to share around

As friends we gave each other our self-respect
And to know there's no need for us to pretend
We've the freedom in choosing our own friends
The things in life we like to do on our free ends

Just that you sensed when something ain't right
Took me out to company me through the night
Hold onto me in the park never loose my sight
Till I'm feeling alright and looking more bright

So as friends all our secrets we soon forget
Enjoying our friendship we find no regrets
The things we do and the things we like in life
As long as we remained as friends being alike

You may think I'm too naïve to write this lyrics
But that's me you known I'm kinda of romantic
I like to dwell in Fairy Tales where I can dream
It's only in dreams I found my handsome prince


We can be good friends still even we aren't lovers

Ada Shuling
Tuesday, 19 May 2015

Thinking of him again........

I was feeling moody again lately after so many unhappy events happened to me and off a sudden I felt so lonely and insecure in life seeing some of my kin falling sick, aged and weaken.  Is life so fragile? Suddenly I began to think of him.  Whenever I felt lonely, I would always thought of him… he was my ex I admired and like very much but unfortunately we are not together anymore… but still I thought of him here.

You left in a twinkling of an eye
Without saying a word “goodbye”
When you’re gone my World fell
It’s like you casted on me a spell
All things in my life gone downhill
I'm felt so desolated and fallen ill
Like Snow White in the fairy tale
Fallen deep in sleep looking pale
Waiting for my love all this years

To find me calmly sleeping here

Hoping you woke me with a Kiss
A sweet kiss from you is all I seek
t’s a Kiss of Life as the story said
Up from my bed I no longer stay
Alas! It’s just a tale and not true
Though a tale but thinking of you
And I’m not giving up on you still
Coz my love for you I yet to fulfil

My dear, hope you are well and happy all the time.  Hope to meet again if we are still fated to be friend.

Love,
Ada Shuling

A Sad Angel ... without wings

I'm so sorry, being moody again....  

Have you see an Angel without wings?  No right? An Angel without wings don't look like an Angel at all. And the beauty of an Angel is not complete.  Same with us transgender.  We feel like we are missing something in life. Something in us that is not right. And we feel we are ugly looking in our sight. Our present is not felt at all. We are not welcome in the society, not even in our own home and with our families.

I wrote this poem to symbolise myself as a transgender, is like an Angel born without it wings.

A Sad Angel

I'm like a sad Angel born without wings
A sad song in my heart I can softly sing
I wander on a earth but never in the sky
Without any wings, I'm not be able to fly
I grief on my missing wings every night
To find an answer to my missing plight
Why I'm born looking so ugly in a sight 
It's not me and what I look into my kind
I'm shame of myself when I look inside 
Until I want to run away to go and hide
In a dark place no one will see me cry
I never happy and want to end my life
Find no meaning living a life so unlike
Till I pray to the Lord on a lonely night

“Without my wings, Lord, will I able to fly?”

The Lord answer me with a sympathy sight:

“My dear angel, I created you without wings
It's your heart that mean more than anything
Goodness in you shall bring forth good tiding
You can be a normal if you're gentle and kind
To break your spell my dear, you need to find
A humble guy who is able to share your plight
He's too without wings like u beneath the sky
Searching for an angel who is gentle and kind
Until that time my sad angel don’t lose sight
Your missing wings in search for him tonight
And when you find him you will find out why
Deep down in him you'll find his heart inside
Lay the mystery to your missing wings myth
It’s mortal love and not wings you seek to fly
As human and not Angel you'll be able to find
The joy and harmony is what you seek in life
On earth with your love one beneath the sky
And it's a blessing from Heaven in paradise”

Ada Shuling
04 April 2015

I love the way you are....

This is a poem I wrote for a new friend who I came to know recently.  He is so supportive of us in the transgender community.

I love the way you treated a Transgender
Your approach to befriend us is so tender
I love the way you shown us your respect
To people like us we don't even to expect
I love the way you opened up your mind
With big loving heart so warm and kind
I love the way you always there to share
All our woes, hatred and pains we bear
I love your way you told us you do care
As a friend, a brother you are our guide
I love the way you are so cool and polite
Your sincerity touches me with a delight
I love the way you held my arms so tight
Sending chills all way down to my spine
I love the way you called me your "Dear"
Whenever I needed, you're always here
I love your smiles look so sweet and real
To all of us you always so full of cheers
I love the way you called us your friends
You're a part of our community we stand

On behalf of the Transgender Community, I thank you my dearest friend for the support of the Transgender people.

Ada Shuling
1st April 2015

Lonely Valentine Night

To my Ex....

Oh! Where art thou, My Love?
I ain't spend Valentine all alone
It has been more than five years
And I never heard from you here
Was hoping you might came by
And keep me company tonight
But you never call all these time
The day you left, I wanted to cry
The sad memory you left behind
I still remembered it in my mind
We dated in a park late one night
You kissed me the very first time
Underneath the dimly moon-light
You held me in your arms so tight
My heart beating so fast in delight
We both fell in love at a first sight
It's so romantic in love to describe
The stars twinkling in sky so high
And full moon shinning so bright
We sat on the beach side by side
Watching the ships as passing by
The sandy beaches and calm tides
Cool sea breezes blowing so nice
Now all the happiness with you die
Since the time you left me aside
And it is another empty valentine

Ada Shuling

14 February 2014

To a Friend of the Transgender

Dear,
You know who you are when you read this poem I have written for you.
You impressed me so much with your wisdom and understanding.


We're friend though we never met
And came to know in Facebook Net
You shown your friendship and care
I see a loving gentleman out there
A nice gentleman humble and kind
The impression of you in my mind
You know the pleasing words to say
To a transgender in very polite way
And by saying you've make our day
Make us transgender happy at bay
Every word feel so sweet to my ear
So loving words find so dear to hear
A honest expression is I couldn't lie
To tell you I a common transvestite
Not pretty but feel feminine inside
Yet find me appealing to your sight
Treating me like a lady with delight
What I don't even expect in my life
You said my look dun affect our ties
So not to doubt our heart and mind
To be a good friend we shouldn't lie
As long as there's chemistry we find
Forever in our hearts you and mine
Stay as very close friend all the time

Thank you dear
Ada

21 March 2015

You changed my Life

I'm always been a bad kind of gurl that hid my face
Am afraid to tell the World what a bitch got to say
Till I met you on that day, you took away my fear
Let me see what I'm supposed to be me that is real
Now I'm so happy to find out what I wanted to be
No more hiding the shame of the gurl that is in me
My feeling inside me and I'm going to let it shows
The real in me that is time to let the World knows
Let the light shines on my heart so that I could see
No more fakes and lies that once used to be in me
Before we met I was always residing in my folly
Now I find in my life there is no more complexity
You've changed my perception in my life entirely
I've to believe in myself now as the only way it is
Not to dream kind of life I wanted to be superstar
But to be the realistic that's what I'm looking afar
And you've gave me that hope so I can cling onto
It's only you in my feeling telling me what to do
And you've said I known was for my own good
So I wrote it down in a poem to remember you

Ada Shuling
03 April 2015

There’s no barrier in Friendship

Dedicated To A Internet Friend

Think I expressed myself much better in a poem for you.

We're friends already though we never met
And we've just corresponded in the internet
But you've shown your friendship and cares
I can see you as a good gentleman out there
A gentleman who is so humble and so kind
The impression of you that's inside my mind
You seem to know the pleasing words to say
By saying you've unknowingly make my day
Every word you said stay so sweet to my ear
So praising words that I find so nice to hear
So an honest expression is that I couldn't lie
I, being a common cross dresser transvestite
I'm not pretty but feeling the feminine inside
You find me appealing as a gal in your sight
And treating me like a lady with real respect
What I dreamt of I don't even dare to expect
Think let's not let our looks hindered our ties
And no more doubting our hearts and minds
For us to stay as good friends in away we do
And shouldn't be barrier in our age and look

Thank you so much!

Hugs,

Ada
17 October 2014

Qin Ren Jie Kuai Le aka Happy Valentine

Oh! Where art thou my love?
Since you left me all alone
Do you know it's valentine?
I hate to be alone tonight
Hoping you're at my side
And your heart with mine
On this year on valentine
I'm not asking you for a ROSE
All I needed is your true LOVE


To my Ex....

Oh! Where art thou, My Love?
I ain't spending Valentine alone
It has been more than five years
And I never heard from you here
Was hoping you might come by
And keep me company tonight
But you never call all these time
The day you left I wanted to cry
The sad memory you left behind
I still remembered it in my mind
We dated in a park late one night
You kissed me the very first time
Underneath the dimly moon-light
You held me in your arms so tight
My heart beating so fast in delight
We both fell in love at a first sight
It's so romantic in love to describe
The stars twinkling in sky so high
And full moon shinning so bright
We sat on the beach side by side
Watching all the ships passing by
The sandy beaches and calm tide
Cool sea breezes blowing so fine
Now the happiness with you die
Since the day you left me aside
And it's another empty valentine

It was just few weeks to valentine in 2009 we parted.
And now in year 2014, five years we have been separated.

Ada Shuling

14 February 2014

I have forgotten what chastity felt like

Females are the weaker sex.  Like Eve in Mother Nature is so vulnerable to temptation and easily fallen prey to lust.

I've written a poem not bed full of roses but turn out to be torn instead.  A Love affair that wasn't so sweet after all if there is no true Love indeed.  But still being woman inside,  we fell prey to our mortal lust and sex desire that is entrapping us bodily!

I’ve forgotten what love like felt
In a sordid hotel I fell to his spell
I couldn't resist the desire inside
The room, the bed and dim light
All my senses slowly came to live
My sexual desire risen to a height
In bed I was left with no chances

I'm so vulnerable to his advances
Oh, the passionate feel of his hug
In his arms, I felt his dingy touch
His sweat inducing of a charisma
A manhood’s scent of male aroma
I ended up naked in bed for his lust
What I knew I couldn’t get enough
But the worst after our love making
He didn't bother when I am calling
Just so I knew that there's more lies
In humiliation he's hurting my pride
In still darkness there's always a fear
As I lay in my bed my eyes in tears
And I beg the Lord..........................
"Please, get this cheater off my mind
I want to forget and carry on my life''
Then he’ll call me to have more fun
Just as I knew there's shame to come
Conscience can't kill my heart's desire
A drop of rain can't put out raging fire
Oh, the price I’m paying for fooling
Each time I'm subject to his cheating
 And I beg the Lord...........................
"Please, get this Cheater off my mind
I want to forget and carry on my life''
But the worst part after love making
He didn't bother when I am calling
Just so I knew that there's more lies
In humiliation he's hurting my pride
In still darkness there's always a fear
As I lay in my bed my eyes in tears
 And I beg the Lord…………………
"Please, get this Cheater off my mind
I want to forget and carry on my life"
Then he’ll call me and want more fun
Just as I knew there's shame to come
Yes I'm afraid there's shame to come

Ada Shuling
Wednesday, 25 September 2013

I still think of YOU!

This poem is dedicated to my little Sistas....I once admired and adored.  She is my idol and inspiration to transition and because of her transformation , I adopted her footsteps but I couldn't be looking pretty like her as there was a big different in our age. 
She is the Beauty, and I am the Beast!

"You're so young, and I'm so Old,
Oh my Sistas, please don't go....
Oh Please, don't go... my Sistas"

 

You’re part of my life in a very special way
You, I’ll never forget for the rest of my days
Time can’t change the way I've felt for you
And I always cherished our friendship still

It seems now like forever we’ve been apart

Wish I could go back and make a new start
Since you left me, I missed you very much
I'll always treasured you deep  in my heart

Maybe failure in friendship we couldn't hold

You're like a sistas to me, yet I letting you go
It hurts me so much I couldn’t have you back
I know you'll not return no matter how I beg

Wanting to forget you but I found hard to do
You always came into my mind when I in blue
It's been so long now and I'm still think of you

All this years inside my conscience is my guilt

I bared this guilt like dagger stuck in my heart
I bared this burden like a heavy loads of truck
I carried living my life with despair and shame
I carried living my life and fighting to stay sane

I wanted you back with me again, is all I pled

I wanted you back with me again, is all I seek
I wanted you back with me again, is all I share
I wanted you back with me again, is all I care

When we first met, guessed we'll never know
You’re much too young and I'm much too old

It's so happened things couldn’t go in our way
In a friendship that eventually will never stay

After so many years, I'm  still thinking of you

I still see your sweet mile in my dream of you
So beautiful smile, wished you've not go away
It's so real in my dreaming as if you've stayed

But what's left of my dreams when I woke up

It’s only picture of you to mesmerise the past
I treasured these memories in me forever last
The time we spend together was so much fun

The past is a past and I couldn’t change it now

I wanted to be with you but I didn’t know how
I could only think of you in a way I used to be
And to find you, it's always inside my dreams


Take Care, my Sistas!

 

Ada Shuling
7 August 2013

 

 

A Bright New Day

 

 

DON'T CRY FOR THE PAST,

IT'S GONE!

DON'T STRESS ON THE FUTURE

IT HASN'T ARRIVE!

LIVE FOR THE PRESENT

AND MAKE YOUR LIFE

BEAUTIFUL! 

LIFE IS SHORT

ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLNESS

 

 

No man is worth your tears,
and the one who is, won't be sorry to see you cry,
To the World you may be one person,
But to one person you may be the World.

Don't  lament on the lost on someone,
Who isn't willing to cherish you.
Don't cry because it's all over,
Smile because it has happened.
It's jut a new beginning.

Make yourself a better person,
And know who you are,
Before you learn how to cry.
You'll never expect there's someone else,
Who is more worthy for you.

And never give up on your hope,
when you least expected,
He is right there to support you.
And you realise that someone,
Actually care about you.

Never frown, even when you're sad,
Because you'll never know,
Who is falling in love with your smile.
So smile and stay sweet always
And you'll find love at your doorstep

Ada Shuling

I'm A Bad Gurl

I don’t care what other gossip behind my back

Coz I’m no good gurl and I know I’m bad

I don't care what other think so my heart is black

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

 

I’m hot temper and know how to throw tantrum

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

I'm quick to anger and know how to cause trouble

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

 

I like to hurt people’s feeling and never feel regret

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

The pain I’ve caused them and they’ll never forget

Cos I’m no good gurl and I know I’m bad

 

I smoke,  I drink and I went to bed with lots of men

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

I'm always in my heavy makeup and don sexy dress

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

Think I'm such a bad gurl now to be forgiven

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

And when I die, I'll go to Hell and not Haven

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

Nobody will pity me, care for me or lend me a hand

Coz I’m no good gurl and I know I’m bad

It's okay, I accept my fate and I deserved what I get

Coz I'm no good gurl and I know I'm bad

You still want to be my friend.....Huh?