As Good Friend still.......

We use to message each other in whatsapp
You always got a way in cheering me up
Looking out for me whenever I feel sad
I'm glad to have a friend never get mad

I known your secrets but I could never tell
When I kept quiet you said I'm too fragile
I just don't have to show my jealous self
Coz' everyone have secret within ourselves

I'll always be as your friend no matter what
Friend be together till the end in keeping up
Friend hangs on through the ups and downs
It's then we've got somebody to share around

As friends we gave each other our self-respect
And to know there's no need for us to pretend
We've the freedom in choosing our own friends
The things in life we like to do on our free ends

Just that you sensed when something ain't right
Took me out to company me through the night
Hold onto me in the park never loose my sight
Till I'm feeling alright and looking more bright

So as friends all our secrets we soon forget
Enjoying our friendship we find no regrets
The things we do and the things we like in life
As long as we remained as friends being alike

You may think I'm too naïve to write this lyrics
But that's me you known I'm kinda of romantic
I like to dwell in Fairy Tales where I can dream
It's only in dreams I found my handsome prince


We can be good friends still even we aren't lovers

Ada Shuling
Tuesday, 19 May 2015

Thinking of him again........

I was feeling moody again lately after so many unhappy events happened to me and off a sudden I felt so lonely and insecure in life seeing some of my kin falling sick, aged and weaken.  Is life so fragile? Suddenly I began to think of him.  Whenever I felt lonely, I would always thought of him… he was my ex I admired and like very much but unfortunately we are not together anymore… but still I thought of him here.

You left in a twinkling of an eye
Without saying a word “goodbye”
When you’re gone my World fell
It’s like you casted on me a spell
All things in my life gone downhill
I'm felt so desolated and fallen ill
Like Snow White in the fairy tale
Fallen deep in sleep looking pale
Waiting for my love all this years

To find me calmly sleeping here

Hoping you woke me with a Kiss
A sweet kiss from you is all I seek
t’s a Kiss of Life as the story said
Up from my bed I no longer stay
Alas! It’s just a tale and not true
Though a tale but thinking of you
And I’m not giving up on you still
Coz my love for you I yet to fulfil

My dear, hope you are well and happy all the time.  Hope to meet again if we are still fated to be friend.

Love,
Ada Shuling

A Sad Angel ... without wings

I'm so sorry, being moody again....  

Have you see an Angel without wings?  No right? An Angel without wings don't look like an Angel at all. And the beauty of an Angel is not complete.  Same with us transgender.  We feel like we are missing something in life. Something in us that is not right. And we feel we are ugly looking in our sight. Our present is not felt at all. We are not welcome in the society, not even in our own home and with our families.

I wrote this poem to symbolise myself as a transgender, is like an Angel born without it wings.

A Sad Angel

I'm like a sad Angel born without wings
A sad song in my heart I can softly sing
I wander on a earth but never in the sky
Without any wings, I'm not be able to fly
I grief on my missing wings every night
To find an answer to my missing plight
Why I'm born looking so ugly in a sight 
It's not me and what I look into my kind
I'm shame of myself when I look inside 
Until I want to run away to go and hide
In a dark place no one will see me cry
I never happy and want to end my life
Find no meaning living a life so unlike
Till I pray to the Lord on a lonely night

“Without my wings, Lord, will I able to fly?”

The Lord answer me with a sympathy sight:

“My dear angel, I created you without wings
It's your heart that mean more than anything
Goodness in you shall bring forth good tiding
You can be a normal if you're gentle and kind
To break your spell my dear, you need to find
A humble guy who is able to share your plight
He's too without wings like u beneath the sky
Searching for an angel who is gentle and kind
Until that time my sad angel don’t lose sight
Your missing wings in search for him tonight
And when you find him you will find out why
Deep down in him you'll find his heart inside
Lay the mystery to your missing wings myth
It’s mortal love and not wings you seek to fly
As human and not Angel you'll be able to find
The joy and harmony is what you seek in life
On earth with your love one beneath the sky
And it's a blessing from Heaven in paradise”

Ada Shuling
04 April 2015

I love the way you are....

This is a poem I wrote for a new friend who I came to know recently.  He is so supportive of us in the transgender community.

I love the way you treated a Transgender
Your approach to befriend us is so tender
I love the way you shown us your respect
To people like us we don't even to expect
I love the way you opened up your mind
With big loving heart so warm and kind
I love the way you always there to share
All our woes, hatred and pains we bear
I love your way you told us you do care
As a friend, a brother you are our guide
I love the way you are so cool and polite
Your sincerity touches me with a delight
I love the way you held my arms so tight
Sending chills all way down to my spine
I love the way you called me your "Dear"
Whenever I needed, you're always here
I love your smiles look so sweet and real
To all of us you always so full of cheers
I love the way you called us your friends
You're a part of our community we stand

On behalf of the Transgender Community, I thank you my dearest friend for the support of the Transgender people.

Ada Shuling
1st April 2015

Lonely Valentine Night

To my Ex....

Oh! Where art thou, My Love?
I ain't spend Valentine all alone
It has been more than five years
And I never heard from you here
Was hoping you might came by
And keep me company tonight
But you never call all these time
The day you left, I wanted to cry
The sad memory you left behind
I still remembered it in my mind
We dated in a park late one night
You kissed me the very first time
Underneath the dimly moon-light
You held me in your arms so tight
My heart beating so fast in delight
We both fell in love at a first sight
It's so romantic in love to describe
The stars twinkling in sky so high
And full moon shinning so bright
We sat on the beach side by side
Watching the ships as passing by
The sandy beaches and calm tides
Cool sea breezes blowing so nice
Now all the happiness with you die
Since the time you left me aside
And it is another empty valentine

Ada Shuling

14 February 2014

To a Friend of the Transgender

Dear,
You know who you are when you read this poem I have written for you.
You impressed me so much with your wisdom and understanding.


We're friend though we never met
And came to know in Facebook Net
You shown your friendship and care
I see a loving gentleman out there
A nice gentleman humble and kind
The impression of you in my mind
You know the pleasing words to say
To a transgender in very polite way
And by saying you've make our day
Make us transgender happy at bay
Every word feel so sweet to my ear
So loving words find so dear to hear
A honest expression is I couldn't lie
To tell you I a common transvestite
Not pretty but feel feminine inside
Yet find me appealing to your sight
Treating me like a lady with delight
What I don't even expect in my life
You said my look dun affect our ties
So not to doubt our heart and mind
To be a good friend we shouldn't lie
As long as there's chemistry we find
Forever in our hearts you and mine
Stay as very close friend all the time

Thank you dear
Ada

21 March 2015

You changed my Life

I'm always been a bad kind of gurl that hid my face
Am afraid to tell the World what a bitch got to say
Till I met you on that day, you took away my fear
Let me see what I'm supposed to be me that is real
Now I'm so happy to find out what I wanted to be
No more hiding the shame of the gurl that is in me
My feeling inside me and I'm going to let it shows
The real in me that is time to let the World knows
Let the light shines on my heart so that I could see
No more fakes and lies that once used to be in me
Before we met I was always residing in my folly
Now I find in my life there is no more complexity
You've changed my perception in my life entirely
I've to believe in myself now as the only way it is
Not to dream kind of life I wanted to be superstar
But to be the realistic that's what I'm looking afar
And you've gave me that hope so I can cling onto
It's only you in my feeling telling me what to do
And you've said I known was for my own good
So I wrote it down in a poem to remember you

Ada Shuling
03 April 2015