You cheating heart..... i still love you

I don't hate you cos you have given me love though it only lasted a short while but I am happy I can cherished that hot passionate moment we spend together.  It is fated we can never be lover for life. "Yiu Yan Mei Fern" - literally mean "Not fated to be together"

You cheating heart making me weep
I cried and cried, couldn't go to sleep
Stayed awake the whole night through
In my lonely bed, I'm thinking of you

My tears came down like falling rain
I tossed in bed and called your name
Hoping to find in my bed, was you
Kissing and holding you the way I do

You'll surely pined for me some day
And craved the love you threw away
Time would come when you in blue
You cheating heart will tell on you

Your tears came down like falling rain
You tossed in bed and called my name
Hoping I'm there right in bed with you
Kissing and holding you the way I do

Ada Shuling - Love and Hate is part of Life
This was written on Tuesday, 13 November 2012

I am what I am now...

It has been quite awhile I have not written any poem lately.  Life is such like transition we are facing so many changes and coping up with all these changes especially for the transgender to face their new image.  We can't look perfect but most importantly is our true self.  It is the inner beauty that is in our nature that is true femininity.

Here, is a poem I written to reflect my life in all these changes....

"I am what I am now"

What I am is in my creation
Image of my own reflection
And dun give me that look
I know I don't look so good
Just dun take me for a fool
What I have here to prove
Everything in me ain't true
So what if life is full of woes
Could I change my own fate
Or my look is so damn bad
There's no reason to be sad
Most important is to accept
Who am I, what I want to be
Then we should be content
Beauty only to do us proud
It's our thought that counts
Life isn't so full of sparkles
But if we know to treasure
We can find that pleasure
Right in our inner gesture
The true femininity nature
You can still be wonderful
No need to look beautiful

I am what I am is written by
Ada Shuling
2012-10-24

10 Love Quotes to remember...

1. 我爱你，不是因为你是一个怎样的人，而是因为我喜欢与你在一起时的感觉。
I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. 没有人值得你流泪，值得让你这么做的人不会让你哭泣。
No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. 失去某人，最糟糕的莫过于，他近在身旁，却犹如远在天边。
The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.


4. 纵然伤心，也不要愁眉不展，因为你不知是谁会爱上你的笑容。
Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.


5. 对于世界而言，你是一个人；但是对于某个人，你是他的整个世界。
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

6. 不要为那些不愿在你身上花费时间的人而浪费你的时间。
Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.


7. 爱你的人如果没有按你所希望的方式来爱你，那并不代表他们没有全心全意地爱你。
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

8. 不要着急，最好的总会在最不经意的时候出现。
Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.


9. 在遇到梦中人之前，上天也许会安排我们先遇到别的人；在我们终于遇见心仪的人时，便应当心存感激。
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.


10. 不要因为结束而哭泣，微笑吧，为你的曾经拥有。
Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

Ada Shuling
Monday, 13 August 2012

It Must Be Love

To someone I find very special to me whom I admired and respected more than a friend ...
This is for YOU, Darling!
I composed this poem from Alan Jackson's record album in one of his songs "It must be Love"

"It Must Be Love"

First I get cold and then I get hot,
Think I'm on fire but then I'm not,
Hmm..., what a heartache I've got,
Oh, what a feeling, it must be love!

There's nothing more than I can do,
All I can do now is to think of you,
Look dear, what I'm going through,
Oh, what a feeling, it must be love!

Fall like a sparrow, fly like a dove,
Like a stray butterfly, lost in love,
Searching for a kind hearted soul,
Oh, what a feeling, it must be love!

Something is wrong, or is it right?
I've been thinking of you all night,
I can't sleep 'til the morning light,
Oh, what a feeling, it must be love!

It's like seeing you in my dreaming,
Holding you so close to me, darling,
Just don't awaken my nice feeling,
Oh. what a feeling, it must be love!

Oh, what else can it be?
Oh, what else can it be?
It must be love! It must be love!
It must be love! It must be love!

Fall like a sparrow, fly like a dove,
Like a stray butterfly, lost in love,
Searching for a kind hearted soul,
Oh what a feeling, it must be love!

Lots of Love, kisses and Hugs,
Ada Shuling

To My Master with Love....

This is just a playfulness I wrote in the poem out of boredom... and no meaning whatsoever but it's fun for reading for those who are bored in life, like me......
Or are you actually feeling Horny and Kinky in life? 
Hahahaha! Enjoy reading.

It's actually written for you M J......

Bondage sprung inside my raging flame

I love the feeling being bound and gag
I’m safe and sane, hope you’re the same
Master! Let’s get intimate in bed to play
Let me be your a good submissive slave
Tie me up in bed with locks and chains
With my pillows and bolster to embrace
Teasing my Master to see me masturbate
For my Master's pleasure I'm in display
I’m yours to do anything in what you say
Your wish and command I will dear obey
To serve my Master wholly without shame
Lay in my bed naked for my Master's sight
And please my Master to enjoy me tonight
It's nice to be naked with my Master beside
Oh Master! Feel me, kiss me, Hold me tight
I don't want to lose you, I'm so kinky inside
Tonight, just let me be your beloved bride
Aww....see me wriggle and moan in delight
Struggling to get free in my bondage plight
With my sexual pleasure rising to a height
I’m so damn horny and want to be satisfied
Master! I can't wait any longer to be untied
So we can play in bed all night till twilight

Hmmmm.... think I'm Bitch!

I LOVE U !
Ada Shuling
Tuesday, June 12, 2012

A Love Poem in memory of John

This is a Love Poem written for John 
Hmmm,,,,, you know who you are when you read my poem!

It started with a kiss and started our hearts infatuation
Your tender touch so full of warm and loving affection
My heart keeps beating when you hold me in your arms
You took me so swiftly in bed and I fell in for your charm
Though it only lasted a short moment in my exhilaration
But you leave behind in my memory a sweet impression
The gentleness of your personality you have for a lady
Make me feel so fascinated and I wanted you so badly
I felt so lonely when stillness of the night turns so calm
Thinking of you in my bed hoping that you would come
Counting the days and nights in hopeless anticipation
Waiting for you to come back and fulfil my fascination

Sweet Memory and I love you,John.
Ada Shuling
Sunday, 26 February, 2012

A Birthday Dedication....

A Birthday Wishes....        

Oh, it's your Birthday Today
You’ve sweet Smiling Face
Here to cheer up Your Day
A few simple Words to Say
Wish you a Happy Birthday
May you be Happy and Gay
In good Health forever Stay
And bad Lucks to go Away
Strike Toto & 4-D everyday
So you'll be Happy Always
Put your money in the Safe
But don't forget me, Okay!
Hope you like these Phrases
I wish you on your Birthday

Happy Birthday, My Friend.

Hugs
Ada
Thursday, 26 January 2012

I love the way you look

This is for you, J. W. in the sweet memory of the time we spend together. Time passed so fast. It has been a long time. Hope you are well and happy.

I love the way you looked at me,
Your eyes, so deep and blue.
I love the way you kissed my lips,
The feeling, so warm and good.

I love the way you make me happy,
No matter what, you show your care.
I love the way you call me “Honey”
When in need, you're always there.

I love the way you hold me tight,
Sending chills down my spine.
I love the way, your smile so dear,
You’re always so full of cheers.

Hugs and Kisses,

Ada Shuling

Best Friend in Remembrance

This poem is dedicated to a special sister of mine.  Thank you dear for being so understanding of me and always ready to forgive me everything I erred.   You're always a big Sister to the Trans, cross dressers and transvestites indeed.

Friend are a rare jewel, indeed,
They're a sparkle to your life.
And making the smile you seek,
When you’re down with strife.
They get you back on your feet,
And always stand by your side.
Whatever you face in your need,
They're there to be your guide.

They lend an ear to listen to your cry,
They share a word of praise, if you try.
It’s good to let out your feeling inside,
To a friend that you can really confide.
There shouldn’t be any secrets to hide
And nothing to be ashamed or feel shy
Friend always open their heart to share
In a way to show how much they care

Adaline
Written on Saturday, 21 January 2012
Re-edited on Monday, 23 January 2012
Dedicated to Nic Lave

Cries of a Transgender

Many transsexuals faced unhappiness in their latter marriage life. Thinking after getting married, they can maintained their role as male and forgo their femininity to become a woman. But then they found themselves trapped and unable to cope up as a man.  They started to break down and some how fallen apart in their marriage life. Being womanly inside with an effeminate persona, they ended up seeking psychological counselling and going through transition in HRT and SRS to alter their fate and destiny to live as a woman.

 

But in doing so, it is going to hurt their love ones. It is a painful step to take in the initial stage but life has to go on .....

I composed this poem in better understanding of a transsexual's mind in their feeling to become a woman and forgo everything in life including their families, friends and relations to live as a woman they always wanted to be so that they can find happy inside. But the pain and suffering they are going through the path of transition is very aching journey but is it worth the transition in your life? I leave it to individual transsexual to answer for themselves but I wish you all have make the right choice and to be blessed in your new life as a woman.

To myself..................................................

I’m leaving my past in search of my destiny

Too much bitter tears raining down on me

My heart seems to be far away from home

I'm undergoing my transition silently alone

In a hidden path too weary for me to walk

What left of me is a sad testimony I bored

Friends shun away finding me in a change

Being masculine becoming feminine dame

And slowly find I am not looking the same

I'm like living an outcast life full of shame

Why my sex gender not matching to me

Trapped in a wrong body uncomfortably

It's a wrong gender estranging my mind

I'm searching my past in wanting to find

Why I was born in a body that's so unlike

That's not me what I looked for mine kind

What gender should I conform to identify

Myself as female or leave my male behind

That's causing so much miseries to my life

So much worrying and I couldn’t decide

Wish I could give up my life and just die

Every time I looked into the mirror, I find

A hidden shadow of a woman inside me

Trapped in a male’s body trying to get free


To my love one...............................................

I used to bring you sunshine all the years round

Now it seems I’ve failed you in letting you down

How I wish it would be if you were in my shoes

No, there isn’t making sense to tell you the true

Either way I've chosen, I’m definitely to lose you

There isn’t any one that I can turn to for support

But to go for my transition it’s my only accord

Though you pleaded, screamed and you cried

To stay calm for you, maybe we can give a try

To find a solution whereby we can compromise

But it’s much too late now for me to do and say

To hold back my tears and tell you I would stay

It would be too much pain now for me to face

I have transited so much in my feminine phase

And turning back for me it's like telling you a lie

To stay I would cause a big mocking to your life

It's only a matter of time that you soon forget

The hatred I caused you that's making you sad

Your feeling for me in your heart will soon die

And forgotten I have ever existed in your life

 

And life needs to go on ........  and on..........

You just have to be strong...........................

 

Ada Shuling
Repost on Saturday, 4 February, 2012